Friday, April 10, 2009

Babies.....that's right....two!

Now before you go and get all excited, they are not MY babies (though maybe that call will come from the agency!) but the newly conceived 9 weeks ago twins that my sweet school teacher friend Tracie and her husband announced today! We got to see a whole little album of them from their sonogram shots. I could clearly see the head, spine, arm and leg buds, tummy....times two! They are floating blissfully in their mommy's tummy right now and she is so grateful! We shared hugs, tears and laughter today at school. It really did my heart good. Tracie and her husband have tried to conceive for a long time. I have prayed for her and worried about her and today....it was all worth while! It is just so much sweeter when you know someone who has struggled and then in an instant, all of that pain can vanish with a little + on a pregnancy test!

On to our baby news.....month one of the wait.....no one has seen our book yet. They have had a few ladies come to them but the demographic was not what we had indicated in our profile. So she said not to worry. It is early yet. I am glad to be making progress. Moving forward. And having someone else do the worrying for me. My friend Janet says that someone is pregnant right now....but they just have not decided to place their baby yet. And when they do, our album will be waiting for them to see.

Today is Good Friday. We are finally on Spring Break. I am tired. I have been exhausted. I still am. But today....today was a good day. Little children hunting eggs in the warm windy day, running willy nilly all over the playground. New life (times two), so desperately wanted.....and a break from this job that I love so much, but was so weary of as of late....

The Little Prince is off to an egg hunt tomorrow with a friend and I may take the first of many naps....

Time to rest Princess......time to rest......

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Back Among the Living....

Today the Little Prince had a baseball game at the un-imaginable hour of 8:30 am on a Saturday. It was a bit chilly but a nice start to the day. The Blue Angels are in town today, flying around overhead. Quite amazing. And, because everyone was at the Blue Angles show, I could zip around town with no traffic what-so-ever!

After the game (which they won, by the way) we went to Sam's for dog food, cleaning supplies, and printer cartridges for the school printer. I tried to make it to the end of the year with the cartridge I have now....but Friday, it bit the dust. Right in the middle of printing a very important document. Why don't they make black cartridges twice as large as the colored ones....Oh.well. That will be one less thing I have to purchase in August when school starts back.

Spring Break is in 5 school days. I just might live.

After dropping Big and Little off at home, I went to a favorite, yet seldom visited, refuge...the Public Library. I need to make time to go more often. It is soothing to me to wander about the stacks, peeking and poking into lives (real and imaginary) that are not my own. Perhaps that is why I like reading other people's blogs. :-) I spent the better part of my youth in the library. I used to read the encyclopedias when I ran out of things to read at home. Shutting my eyes and randomly selecting a volume and reading the interesting bits.....cover to cover....Brandon and I were always really great at trivia....me, from the encyclopedias....it just came naturally for him...

Since today was the first Saturday of the month, I grabbed on of my lovely re-usable grocery bags (last year's New Year's resolution) purchased from Delight.com, and wandered over to the Friends Bookstore. This little niche is a bookstore for discarded books, donated books, etc...and is attached to the library. Today was Stuff a Sack Saturday!

If it is one thing I love love love....it's books! I stuffed my quite ample sack full of bits of fluff and serious reads and paid $15 for the whole I-could-barely-carry-it-because-it-was-so-full thing! I love Stuff a Sack Saturdays! I can take the books to the pool or beach and not have to worry about messing them up with sunscreen or returning them on time. I read so fast that I rarely purchase new books (unless they are for my class library). So, I go to Stuff a Sack days, fill up my gargantuan shopping bag and read til my heart is content. I spent the entire rest of the day on the sofa in the playroom and I read an entire book.....oh, and I took an incredibly long nap. I feel almost human again.

In a week or so, I'll gather up the books I've read and drop them off in the drop box at the Friends Bookstore. They will sell them all over again! The ones I just love get passed on to friends or stuffed in my ever-overflowing bookshelves. The others, back to Friends so they can resell them to other book lovers. Brillant! I love this process. It's sorta like my own personal Netflix for books.

I also turned the iphone to silent and left it in the kitchen. I checked out of the world today until about 7 pm. Nice. When I came up from the basement playroom (where I had napped and read a way the day) I caught a glimpse of Grayson's moses basket in the guest room....just waiting for our new baby......I smiled. We are going to have another baby. Sooner rather than later.....

Today also marks the 7 month anniversary of my brother's death. My parents were "normal" when I talked to them today. I know that none of us have forgotten, but they were not hysterical today and for that I am thankful. It's the burden of being an only child that I do not want for myself or my own child.....Life is too involved to have to make decisions on your own. I dread the time when I have to make decisions about my parents and Brandon is not here to back me up or help me. When I think about it, I pretend I am Scarlett and push it away to deal with on another day. I know that "another day" is coming but I pray it is far away and that I will feel like an adult when it gets here....

Daddy is actually looking online at condos on the Gulf. An on again off again dream of his......maybe it is time.....

Currently, Big is grilling hamburgers and Little is watching Bolt....and I am having a rare "big Girl" drink...and right now.....I............I can finally breathe.............for now..............

a whole lotta thankful today Princess.....a whole lotta thankful...............